I think something i would like to see if I suddenly were to die, was the ones i loved somehow come closer God. I'm not saying everyone to bow down and speak in tongues the second i go.. but at least take a second to think "does God exist? what would he want me to do right now? What would make him happy in my life?
but ofcourse, even thinking these simple questions to me seems so far fetched, when i see the life that my uncle lived. Where he wouldn't shove his faith down your throat, but he lived it. He loved the people around him. He had self control, compasion, mercy, and wisdom, that he had received from God over the years and used to pass Gods love to the people around him.
But look at what happened, instead of all of his loved ones even thinking these simple questions, for the last 3 months it seems that half of his own close family have completely given up on God.
So if that happens for him, how can i even hope for something more.
I guess God has a way and a plan, and he'll be there to make sure everything turns out right.
i guess i just hope the paitence and love that he had for his family, can somehow trump the impatient, greedy, inconsiderate, hate that everyone seems to carry.
one last thing. I used to always believe that everything that happened, happened cause God had it planed, and he knew it would happen, and theres a plan that will somehow have a greater good come from even the most evil things.
but something within the last months has changed my opinion on it. im now more leaning towards the idea that God doesnt plan on people getting murdered/raped etc.. but instead hes there to help comfort the injured, and be there for strength and love for the weak and lonely. How could God plan for something like that? Even if it was something so much more good that could come out of it.. its so hard to believe.
feel free to ask me some questions.. leave a comment... that is all.